Title : Illusions.
Illusions, everyone has illusions. Some illusions can be sweet like honey. Some illusions can be bitter like medicine. For Miki's illusions, I have no words to describe. Or rather that, I do not know how to describe. To most of us, Miki's illusions can be a form of mental torture. Illusions can kill.
Miki was my best friend during my old secondary days. She became quiter after so many things happened. She did not speak as much as she used to be.Her parents divorced few months ago. Miki's father had the custody of his only daugther. As always, Miki thought that it was her father that let her mother down, thus, she never liked him. She became very rebellious, mixed with bad companies. She even did things that are against the law - fighting. She becme the attention of the police officiers. Miki's father became real disappointed. His love for his only daughter became hatred.
"Whenever I look at you, I will be reminded of your disgusting mother ! You better behave yourself behave I throw you back to your mother." Miki's dad shouted.
Miki was not that close to me before these things happened. I was quite surprised that she told me about her family background. We became the best of friends. There were no secrets between us. Miki was a great teacher to me. She coached me when I had difficulties in my daily work. I can say that, without her, there would not have me.
Out of the sudden, Miki do not talk to me anymore. We were not like as we were. She became weird, very weird. I decided to ignore that. I thought that she had met some new friends and forgotten me. During every toilet breaks or recess time, Miki would hide herself inside a cubicle of the ladies. I could not believe what I heard and saw. I caught her talking to herself, or to be exact, she was talking to the space,infront of her.
"Miki, who are you talking to? Why were you talking to yourself? Are you alright?" I asked her, feeling very worried.
"Oh Hi! Meet my new friend, Joan." Miki replied, pointing into the space.
"There were no one else here except for you and me. I don't see anyone, I swear."
"Stop lying ! Joan is standing right beside me ! She has long and silky hair, watey big eyes, small cherry red lips. She's from 4E2. Don't tell me you never see her before? You were just joking, aren't you?" Miki exclaimed.
"Ok, whatever, I'm getting out of here." I walked out of the ladies, feeling annoyed. As I walk towards the class, I thought of what Miki had said. Our school was just 5 years old. I never heard of any rumour that someone died or suicided? It can't be a ghost that Miki was talking to. There is no ghost in this world ! Moreover, no one had the name 'Joan' in 4E2 nor the looks Miki described.
Few weeks later, Joan seemed to vanish from Miki's life. I never hear or even see Miki talking to the non-existing being, Joan anymore. I was alone in class doing my revision, then, I heard a loud bang on the table next to me. It was Miki whom banged the table.
"Hand her over! I said Hand her over. Hand Joan over! I know you had hid her somewhere else. You wanted to break us up, don't you?Joan is missiong. You must have hid her or chased her away! I don't care, I want you to get me Joan! " Miki shouted at me, giving me a tongue-lashing.
"Miki, calm down. Joan don't exist at all. Trust me. I won't lie to you.Whatever you had seen and said were just illusions." I tried to explain. From Miki's eyes, she was looking behind of me. To my horror, there was no one behind me !
"Joan said that if I am dead, I can be with her forever." Miki said, smiling to herself and opened the window. She climbed up to the window pane and jumped down. I grabbed her hand in time.
"Don't let go !" I screamed. Miki smiled and let go of my hand, she fell. I had just see my best friend suicided, I would never forget this scene. Never in this lifetime.
After Miki's incident, I became a better friend to my friends. I cared for them as far as possible to prevent them having the same ending as Miki. Miki was really a very pitiful girl. Also, I became a psychologist, I want to help as many people as possible. It was still my ignorance that killed Miki. Something puzzled me till today is , was Joan Miki's illusions or was she a supernature being?
Da Xiao Jie Xiao Wei's 19/20 chinese letter writing siala
亲爱的晓雯表弟：
你最近还好吗？对不起，很久没联络你了。因为最近考试，忙着温习。 你在学校还应付的来吗？不懂的可以问我。 今天写信来的目的是想帮一帮姨妈的。她在妈妈的面前，哭诉着你变成了一个坏孩子。是真的吗？如果是真的，你太伤她的心了。
其实， 参加了私会党，有什么好处的？除了打架闹事，还有做什么是比较有意义的？你以前是个乖巧懂事的孩子，怎么会变成这个样子？交朋友是没有错，可是交错朋友就是大错特错。教你做坏事的人，会是什么好人？他们可以是你最好的玩伴，做好的朋友，但你有没有想过，如果真的惹出一件大事，你认为他们会和你一起扛下来吗？如果你说会，你真得很需要心理辅导。有没有想过，如果你坐牢，你的一生就被毁了。最痛心，最伤心的会是谁？不是你那一群所谓的好兄弟， 而是疼爱你的爸爸妈妈。
父母对孩子的爱是永恒不变的。虽然他们的婚姻出现了问题，但他们还是那无私的爱着你。当然，谁会想看到自己的父母分开？不可以因为这样就自暴自弃。大人的事就有他们自己处理。 我们只要做好自己的本分。不管结果是如何，我们都要尊重他们的决定。
我想你一定有看过《三个好人》那部电影吧？ 我深深地记得戏里的李国煌饰演的前囚犯。 他说了一句话然我想了好久， 那就是：法官判我坐十年的牢， 可是你们已经判了我死刑。雇主因为知道他坐过牢，所以不愿意给他机会。 这个世界是残忍的。 一旦你走错了第一步，就没有回头路了。
好吧，我该去温习功课了。去想想我对你说的话， 做出正确地选择， 别让我失望。 好好照顾你的妈妈。加油!
祝
身体健康
学业进步。
晓华
2008年09月29日
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